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10 September 2007 @ 07:05 pm
They Don't Love You 9  
Title: They Don't Love You Like I Love You [9/?]
Author: ohvick
Pairing: Mikey/Alicia, Mikey/Gerard, Gerard/SURPRISE
Rating: PG-13
POV: Mrs. Way (Alicia)
Summary: If I had done what I should’ve done, I wouldn’t have found out how very wrong I’d been and how much worse the situation really was.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of these people, nor do i believe or wish that the Ways are anything more than superbrothers. Now that that's settled, let's pray that we don't go to hell for this. DX
Author Notes: I got this idea from when i was making a bowl of ice cream (with chocolate sauce and sprinkles) and my sister called me fat. -_- thanks skinny bitch. p.s. this is soooo not fluff.
Dedication: jujubescavities for putting aside all her morals and reading this. ILY! and for all those who read this story, because without you, I'd be writing for nothing, obviously.
Beta: my hero, crossbow1

This Picture.

I felt around for my warm jacket inside my room. The barest of light coming from the hall allowed me not to bump into things. My jacket was stuffed in the closet somewhere, not having been worn in a while, so I had to rummage around for a bit. My hands shook in near panic until I finally found it and shoved my arms through and proceeding to get the heat back into my body. I turned to leave, but shrieked in pure surprise terror when I came face to face with Mikey.

“Mikey.” The beat of my heart in aftershock thumped under my hands. “You surprised me.”

“Where are you going?” His words were innocent enough, but beneath the shadows, his dark stare made me shiver. It was like the nightmare. I tried not to think about how Mikey looked very much like the boogeyman.

I babbled a little, not quite sure what I wanted to say, and wrung my hands. “Out...”

“Outside? But it’s so late.” His hands came to rest on my shoulders and I immediately tensed up. “What’s wrong, Alicia?”

I calmed myself down a bit. “Nothing. Just felt like stepping out, for a bit.”

“Go back to bed, baby.” He stripped me of my jacket and tossed it somewhere before I even realized it.

“I just need some air.” He led me to the bed.

“I’ll crack open a window. Now go back to sleep, or you’re gonna be tired tomorrow.” I looked up at him from under the covers where he’d tucked me in. “Goodnight.” A kiss to the forehead, much like a mother would do to soothe her child.

I gave up my weak little protests and leaned up to kiss him. “Night.”

He left with a tiny click of the door. I lay there, wide awake, knowing better than to try to go to sleep again. I’d fit through that window. I could’ve laughed at how ridiculous I was, planning to sneak out like a scared teenager. I listened to the night. Some footsteps, slams and clanks. Then I heard Gerard.

“Ugh…Mikey.” Groans. “Mikeeeey…?” Pathetic sobs and ragged inhalations.

I wanted to be angry. Maybe that was the smart thing. It irritated me to no end that I just wasn’t. Not at Gerard. Not at Mikey. I didn’t know what to feel. That alone made me mad at myself.

I got up, reached the little bathroom and found Gerard on the floor, body still shaking from the wonderful sensation of puking your guts out.


“No it’s just me. Here, let me help you get to your room.”

I helped him up, holding my breath as he breathed in my face, the rank smell of alcohol and sour vomit threatened to make me sick. He got to his room with little help from me, only dragging his hands on the walls to steady himself. Once at the foot of the bed, he just collapsed with a grunt. I settled him in a more comfortable position so his legs weren’t hanging off the side and took his shoes off.

“I feel like…shit.” He said lazily, the words leaving his lips in slurs.

I sat on the bed next to where he lay on his side. “You look like shit.” Kept it light-hearted.

“I need…I need a good shower.”

“And a haircut.” I messed with his sweat soaked hair stuck to his face and in his open mouth.

“Mikey says I shouldn’t.” Oh. Him again.

“You always do whatever he says?”

I watched him think for a bit, his eyes distant. He shut them and shook his head. Finally alone with him, I could examine him thoroughly. He was seriously drained. More so than those nights when he performed. Lying there like it was his only bit of rest ever since the start of the tour. I saw his flaws, the ones that were covered up with stage makeup and jazzy dance moves. I saw why he was practically PMS-ing when Frank had played with his round tummy. Gerard was very real to me then. He rots like the rest of us. I saddened when I realized Mikey had to destroy this beauty, break him down for me to grasp that fact.

“Why do you let him do this to you?” But he was asleep.

I sighed, about to return to my room when he mumbled in his near-sleep state. “‘Cause he’s the only one that loves me.”

I sat there in awe. What could I have said to that? I wanted to hug him tightly, tell him I love him too. The band loves him. The fans love him. But I let him sleep and returned to my room where there was a window big enough for me to make my escape.

thank you for reading my story BYAHHH!

premiumwater: strawberry fieldspremiumwater on September 11th, 2007 12:26 am (UTC)
aw poor gerard :(
I love this chapter! Cant wait for the next one...
Is Alicia going to get to have that chat with frankie in the next one?
frankfurter: frikeyohvick on September 11th, 2007 12:28 am (UTC)
:) thanks!
hmm, idk, maybe ?
haha, sorry i really do wanna just spill.
but cant X|
(no subject) - premiumwater on September 11th, 2007 12:32 am (UTC) (Expand)
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diebyownhandsdiebyownhands on September 11th, 2007 12:49 am (UTC)
thank you for changing the font size XD.

I think the interaction between Alicia and Gee was a bit cute and very sad. Mikey showed his controling side towards Alicia in this chp and I was surprised she reacted to it by sneaking out. I know she doesnt' want him to know about talking to frank, but I would have pushed him aside and told him he isn't my father.

Now I was really hoping for a bit of Frankie!! What is he going to say what does he know?!

Update soon, please?
frankfurter: fatiohvick on September 11th, 2007 01:06 am (UTC)
:D yes. Mikey and his need to have control over everything. Alicia and her wimpiness.
sorry there was no Frank. i really thought there would be.
we'll find out what he's got to say, soon enough!

ps. this is so cool. im watching this movie and the first setting is like the one from the Ghost of You video. like, near the seashore with those spikey thingys.... OMG ITS James Bond!! RAD. just had to share that with someone and you were right here.
chaosy on September 11th, 2007 03:03 am (UTC)
Poor baby!
frankfurterohvick on September 11th, 2007 03:15 am (UTC)
i know! don't you just wanna...give him cupcakes!
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idizzen on September 11th, 2007 04:48 am (UTC)
OMG I missed this story like so, so much. I'm so happy I found this the same second as I clicked my friends page (:

Anyways, I'm going to stop rambling now. I LOVED this chapter even though it made me feel a little sad. You're such an amazing wiriter. Gerard's feelings are so real, I cna actually feel them.

“Why do you let him do this to you?” But he was asleep.

I sighed, about to return to my room when he mumbled in his near-sleep state. “‘Cause he’s the only one that loves me.”

That was just soo sad when Gerard answered. I feel so sorry about Gerard. He seems to be hurting so goddamn much. Well, let's hope it gets better for him the next chapter =]

*gives you brownies*

frankfurter: bob o sanohvick on September 11th, 2007 05:05 am (UTC)
it made me a little sad too. i had to remind myself im making this up. XD*spaz*
aww thank your for loving it. this has to be one of my favorite chapters.

AH! i appreciate your offer but those brownies will get me fat!!

eh, what the hell, hand them over! *glomps* :D

(no subject) - idizzen on September 11th, 2007 12:08 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Lollypilldependent on September 11th, 2007 06:20 am (UTC)
my parents suggested that perhaps they increase my medication, just coz i walked around for half an hour mumbling about 'mikey being an asshole and deserving to be shot out of a cannon'.

now that i've calmed myself, i shall simply plead for another update soon.
frankfurter: yuhh frankohvick on September 11th, 2007 06:28 am (UTC)
bwahaha! i love you , you damn
basket case. hahah

mkay, soon as i can.
thank you dear.
girlpowers7 on September 12th, 2007 08:46 pm (UTC)
i love this chapter. (:
but i still want to know what alicia and frankie talk about.

my friend is awesome. she's trying to get me and her backstage passes to the MCR show in Newark.
i'm freaking out. (:
but in a good way (coughagoodmikeywaythatiscough)
MIKEY'S GONNA BE THERE! i'm soooooo happy. but there is a chance she won't. and then i'm gonna cry. but she got us passes for the fray, and for fall out boy, and possibly panic! at the disco.
so yah, i'm still gonna be happy. (:
frankfurter: gerardohvick on September 12th, 2007 09:42 pm (UTC)
thanks sweetie :)

:O OMG!! im so happy for you :D
awwww you must take pics! ahaha, thats so rad, man.
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(Anonymous) on September 23rd, 2007 10:38 pm (UTC)
I think she wants to not have anymore evidence of the deed. She probably believes that it isn't really happening. So if she finds no more proof than she can dismiss the problem.
frankfurter: gee tieohvick on September 24th, 2007 01:38 am (UTC)
A+ my friend. :D
美香 (Mika)soundofrespire on September 24th, 2007 03:22 am (UTC)
I want more...
You have to write more ><

btw, I just wanna say, you should make it more clearer who says what. Cause sometimes I just gets al little confused, like "oh, who said that?"
But it's great ^^
frankfurterohvick on September 24th, 2007 03:27 am (UTC)
:D thank you
and about the dialogue,
they switch. like, im always making them go back and forward cause i hate hate hate those little "he said, she said" thingys. i hope that makes it somewhat clearer.
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frankfurterohvick on September 24th, 2007 04:55 am (UTC)
:O ahah! thank you so much, you're a wonderful reviewer!
:D i'll try not to disapoint
(Anonymous) on September 30th, 2007 09:54 pm (UTC)
update soon because this is one of the best fics around!
frankfurterohvick on September 30th, 2007 10:20 pm (UTC)
thank you so much
i needed that